G Herbo tearfully addressed the trauma he’s undergone in the three years since the murder of his close associate Lil Greg during a recent interview.

On Sunday (February 4), Herbo appeared in an exclusive podcast episode with the father of the deceased, Big Greg, via his YouTube channel titled “What The World Doesn’t Know About My Child.” During the conversation, which ran over an hour and some change, Herbo and Big Greg navigated a number of topics including the death of Lil Greg and it’s affect on the Chicago rapper.

“I’m able to comfortably sleep at night and know it’s not my fault but I’mma sometimes feel like it’s my fault because I can’t live life—nothing I do,” he said. “If I win a Grammy, an Oscar, I’mma think about my lil brother, gang I ain’t gone lie to you.”

He continued, “My life can’t be complete without him I ain’t gone lie to you. It don’t feel complete it’s never going to feel complete without him. That’s the truth—I ain’t never going to be able to feel complete without him man. I ain’t gone lie to you boss. This s### just don’t make sense to me it don’t add up. And I been through a lot of s###—way too much s###. It still ain’t making sense to me. Why he not here?”

G Herbo went on to explain that he and Big Greg’s grief for the loss of Lil Greg wasn’t just unique to them—remarking on their quest to help the millions of people like them who navigate the pain of their lost one’s via the podcast.

Lil Greg was fatally wounded in January 2021 at a barbershop located in the Southside loop neighborhood of Chicago. The assailant reportedly walked into the shop and shot Lil Greg directly in the face.

Watch the full interview below.